~Lilly, Bringer of Joy~ 1/13/14-5/25/25

Some favorites of my Lilly.

It’s been a month since she left moving at the only speed she ever had, fast. While I will never stop missing her, I’m reshaping myself as an I not a we and find comfort in the knowledge that who I am now is because she helped me shape myself the whole time she was with me. She taught me so much about behavior (across the species), life, and joy. 

Many of you have heard my story of how Lilly arrived, but here it is for those who don’t know it and just for the reminder of magic. Dixie, my Aussie, died on a Monday. The following Sunday evening I was looking on a few rescue sites and I heard a voice (I normally only hear my own voices) that said, “You don’t need to look for a dog, the right dog will appear.” The following morning I had a message from a friend, our fairy dogmother, “I know it may be too soon, but I have a dog you should meet.” With the message was a photo of Lilly and I knew I was supposed to meet her. I met her that Tuesday and on Friday she came to visit to make sure she’d be okay with the resident cats. I brought her home for good on that Saturday. 

From fairly early on I had the sense that we would not have a long time together. I have two daily gratitude practice groups, one started 15 years ago and the other started 11 years ago. I know having that strong foundation in the perspective of gratitude in combination with the sense that I wouldn’t have long with Lilly allowed me to fully appreciate her every day we were together. During our time together I knew I would never know another dog like her and would never have the connection we had.

Nine packed years. She stayed just days past her 9th gotcha day. She helped me transition from massage therapist to dog trainer, being my partner through the KPA-CTP program, and helping me get my CCUI. We did all the sports and we were perfection as a team whether it was actually in sports or in daily life. We did some dock diving, but in rally she shone. We didn’t trial much, but titled rapidly in rally because we qualified in all but one run in our whole career. She loved tricks and so many people loved watching her run through her repertoire which was quite extensive. NW was our main sport and we eventually became a super solid team. She broadened my world bringing in so many people and dogs. We walked and hiked many, many miles together and that was when we were most in sync, our rhythms fitting together and into the greater rhythms of the planet. Those hikes were a necessity for both of us. But, Lilly’s greatest love was water. I always joked that if we ever got lost, we wouldn’t die of thirst, because Lilly would lead us to the water. 

I am comforted knowing her final days were full of her favorite things and beings. Her arrival was magical and speedy. Our time together was magical and full. Her departure was a gift in that there were no decisions to make other than to be there, hands on her body, for her final breaths. Everything is energy and while there is a hole in the physical plane where she was by my side, we were already one and will always be one. We are all part of the whole.

RESET, a guided meditation

Sunrise, April 3, 2020

Many of us are in close quarters with our families and housemates (humans and nonhumans alike) and spending more time together than usual. With the added stresses of our current reality, this makes for some different energy patterns between beings. My intention for this Monday’s meditation is to create and hold space for you as I guide you to clear your heart to heart connections and reconnect with yourself.

Here is what two of last Monday’s meditation participants had to say:
“Loved the meditation on Monday.”
"I really enjoyed the meditation last night!!!"

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RESET, a guided meditation
Monday, April 6th
By Phone
7-7:30 PM EDT
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I have spent more than a decade learning how to navigate my inner landscape, how to support myself in navigating a culture I rarely feel in sync with, and how to share my explorations of the heart to heart web of this world. I often receive information via clairsentience, and that is how I became an Intuitive Guide. I am a travel guide to the realms unseen, a realmwalker. While we’re all staying home, you may find a yearning or need to delve into an unseen world. If you would like a guide for that exploration, please contact me for a session. If you are experiencing financial hardship, please let me know and we will figure something out.

May you find the patterns that help you create the rhythm you need for your days. Breathe, be you, part of the whole.

~Namaste

Seeking Unity on This Journey

Yellow Mountain dawn gloaming

August flew by with busy days and the steadily lengthening dark. Our early morning walks are shifting, bit by bit, with the light. More of our feathered friends are moving through on their journeys toward their winter homes. Deer are herding up: coats browning, antlers growing, fawns so much bigger now. It’s so dry here; leaves are already falling steadily from some trees. The creeks, rivers, ponds, and lakes levels continue to drop and some are almost completely dry. After such a wet year last year, this feels even more drastic.

Migrations: many species migrate as a regular and key part of their existence. Climate change is like a pendulum swinging farther to the extremes and there is extremely noticeable change of many species due to this. The refugee crisis around the world is tied into the effects of climate change on humans and the thought that humans don’t migrate is absurd. As a species we have long (probably always) migrated even if the reasons may appear different. There are many other species who are adjusting in a positive way and there is always much we can learn from other beings.

Separation and unity are two opposite experiences for us as humans. Separation is often tied in with the fear based us against them perspective. Unity is what most of us are actually seeking: a belonging and feeling of being known and accepted and loved. But in our current culture and society, these two are often woven together in a warped way, so people unite around a sports teams or school or country but take it to an extreme with a fear based us against them perspective. We already belong, it’s being able to remember and know that we belong to this greater whole that is key.

Part of my mission is to help people experience unity and belonging as part of nature, part of the larger organism of Gaia and this multiverse. I am forever thinking of “when I walk” sentences as I try to put into words the powerful beyond words experience every time I take a walk. But, all those sentences boil down to: when I walk I know I am part of the whole. And while walking is one way I experience unity and belonging as part of nature, another way is to experience heart to heart connections with other beings. Whenever I work with a new client for a companion animal session, there is an added layer of joy-aha-pure life when a person experiences that heart to heart level with their companion animal(s). The newfound awareness of unity, belonging, connection is profound.

~Namaste