Part of the Whole

Navigating Time: One Perspective

January dawn colors.

January dawn colors.

So many thoughts swirl in me and my mind feels like a whirlwind when I think of writing something, but today I’ve managed to organize my thoughts a small bit. Time is something that I am fascinated with and by, and the past 9 months of living through this pandemic have really allowed me explore my relationship with time on a different level. What? A relationship with time? I know, it’s not a particularly common perspective. As my main experiential sense of life is spatial, it’s been helpful to realize that part of the pressure I feel as overwhelm is actually coming from my experience of time. Maps have always felt really comfortable for me and in recent years when I started mapping out my weeks and days, I felt better able to navigate time. My maps are a way for me to spatially orient myself, and my actions, in time. My maps aren’t new, but they’ve had a major impact on my ability to navigate the warped feeling time has during this pandemic: where at the same time things feel soo slow and lightning fast.

Much of life seems to be about figuring out myself on a deeper level and better using my strengths to meet my challenges as I expand more fully into my whole self. Knowing myself more deeply allows me to better explore my part of the whole and navigate that back and forth between experiencing myself as part of the whole and experiencing myself as the whole.

While there is obviously so much going on on so many fronts (scientific, medical, political, cultural, and more), this little snippet is what’s come out today. Stay safe, stay informed, stay well.

RESET, a guided meditation

Sunrise, April 3, 2020

Sunrise, April 3, 2020

Many of us are in close quarters with our families and housemates (humans and nonhumans alike) and spending more time together than usual. With the added stresses of our current reality, this makes for some different energy patterns between beings. My intention for this Monday’s meditation is to create and hold space for you as I guide you to clear your heart to heart connections and reconnect with yourself.

Here is what two of last Monday’s meditation participants had to say:
“Loved the meditation on Monday.”
"I really enjoyed the meditation last night!!!"

Care to join me?

RESET, a guided meditation
Monday, April 6th
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7-7:30 PM EDT
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I have spent more than a decade learning how to navigate my inner landscape, how to support myself in navigating a culture I rarely feel in sync with, and how to share my explorations of the heart to heart web of this world. I often receive information via clairsentience, and that is how I became an Intuitive Guide. I am a travel guide to the realms unseen, a realmwalker. While we’re all staying home, you may find a yearning or need to delve into an unseen world. If you would like a guide for that exploration, please contact me for a session. If you are experiencing financial hardship, please let me know and we will figure something out.

May you find the patterns that help you create the rhythm you need for your days. Breathe, be you, part of the whole.

~Namaste

Do you need a RESET?

You are an important part of the whole.

You are an important part of the whole.

Everyone is experiencing massive changes to their daily lives at the moment. Many people are feeling off-kilter. I am offering Reset, a guided meditation at 7pm on Monday, March 30th. I will guide you through your inner landscape as you explore, clear, and reconnect with yourself. You will discover and get to know your edges, heart space, elements and more. This will be a live call, and I will create and hold the space for you during this exploration. I want to make this available to all who could benefit, so I am offering this as pay-what-you-can, with a suggested payment of $5. Register here. And please share this far and wide as so many can benefit from this right now.
~Namaste

Are You a Human Being or a Human Doing?

For several reasons, I’m trying to stay in closer contact with friends via messaging and texting in this new reality. While the country is slow as a whole to grasp what is needed to flatten the curve, it is only a matter of time before we’re on a lockdown. Might as well start these patterns to stay in touch with people now. And in more normal times, I know that an important part of my mental and emotional health is quality human time. A normal week for me is full of planned walks and calls with friends to make sure I get that quality human time.

We live in an age where most people spend the vast majority of time staring at a screen. When they’re not working , they’re staring at their phone, tablet, or computer. There’s a massive disconnect. And it’s a disconnect from everything that’s actually real and important. It’s a disconnect from self. It’s a disconnect from other beings: humans and companion animals. It’s a disconnect from the natural world of which we are key parts. People have tried to become human doings instead of human beings. They are constantly doing and going. Being has become something foreign.

Now we are being suddenly tossed onto a new planet where we can’t go and do all the time. And the immediate thought is, “What do I do?” This is a time to look for the constants. This is a time to look for the connections. This is a time to explore yourself and your world in new ways.

What are the constants? First the natural world, of which we are a part, is the most powerful constant. It’s right outside your window. Even if you can’t go outside much or far, or are in an urban area, you have access. Look at the sky: clouds, birds, insects, colors, shapes, movement. Look at the trees and plants and landforms. Look at the animals: insects, birds, reptiles, amphibians, mammals. Look for the elements: earth, fire, water, wind, wood, stone, metal, ether, light, star, storm. Look to the humans who are constants and stay in contact with them by phone, video chat, messaging. Look to the companion animals who are always there supporting us. Second, look within yourself for the constants. This may not be as familiar a landscape for you. Take your time with this exploration. What do you know about yourself? Your likes and dislikes, your skills, gifts. What do you know about different aspects of yourself like your physical, emotional, mental, energy bodies? What do you know about your heart space? You will find constants within yourself as you explore.

Where are the connections? These may be with other humans, but they may be with companion animals, plants, characters in books. These may be the connections that you see and feel at more of a distance like the connections between trees in a wood, or the connections between grackles as their flock flies into the tree in your yard. Everything in our world is interconnected. Humans are not special in having and feeling connections. Look around you and explore.

Knowing self is one of the main reasons we are here. You can’t know other until you truly know self. Take this time in this different reality to do some inner spelunking. If you’re at home with your family, do it together. This is how massive change is created: person by person. You have power, use it wisely and with love.

~Namaste

Seeking Unity on This Journey

Yellow Mountain dawn gloaming

Yellow Mountain dawn gloaming

August flew by with busy days and the steadily lengthening dark. Our early morning walks are shifting, bit by bit, with the light. More of our feathered friends are moving through on their journeys toward their winter homes. Deer are herding up: coats browning, antlers growing, fawns so much bigger now. It’s so dry here; leaves are already falling steadily from some trees. The creeks, rivers, ponds, and lakes levels continue to drop and some are almost completely dry. After such a wet year last year, this feels even more drastic.

Migrations: many species migrate as a regular and key part of their existence. Climate change is like a pendulum swinging farther to the extremes and there is extremely noticeable change of many species due to this. The refugee crisis around the world is tied into the effects of climate change on humans and the thought that humans don’t migrate is absurd. As a species we have long (probably always) migrated even if the reasons may appear different. There are many other species who are adjusting in a positive way and there is always much we can learn from other beings.

Separation and unity are two opposite experiences for us as humans. Separation is often tied in with the fear based us against them perspective. Unity is what most of us are actually seeking: a belonging and feeling of being known and accepted and loved. But in our current culture and society, these two are often woven together in a warped way, so people unite around a sports teams or school or country but take it to an extreme with a fear based us against them perspective. We already belong, it’s being able to remember and know that we belong to this greater whole that is key.

Part of my mission is to help people experience unity and belonging as part of nature, part of the larger organism of Gaia and this multiverse. I am forever thinking of “when I walk” sentences as I try to put into words the powerful beyond words experience every time I take a walk. But, all those sentences boil down to: when I walk I know I am part of the whole. And while walking is one way I experience unity and belonging as part of nature, another way is to experience heart to heart connections with other beings. Whenever I work with a new client for a companion animal session, there is an added layer of joy-aha-pure life when a person experiences that heart to heart level with their companion animal(s). The newfound awareness of unity, belonging, connection is profound.

~Namaste

Heat, White Supremacist Terrorists, and Creating Change

Our donkey friends were such lovely silhouettes in the dawn.

Our donkey friends were such lovely silhouettes in the dawn.

We’re almost at the halfway point between the summer solstice and the autumnal equinox. It’s another hot summer. The National Weather Service issued a report in July showing that here in Charlottesville the average number of days above 90 is 21, and by mid July we’d already had 39. Yes, almost double, and that was still in July. This is also another summer of white supremacist terrorist attacks. It’s been two years since the attack in Charlottesville and the numbers (all of whom have names and are not merely the numbers it feels they have become) of blacks and people of color who have been murdered continue to rise. Until we face the past, acknowledge that our current systems were built upon white supremacy, and still maintain and promote white supremacy, we will continue to experience mass horrors and atrocities.

What does any of this have to do with the energy realm?

Part of my purpose in this life is to explore and help others explore how we are part of the whole, this whole multiverse. A key piece of this perspective is recognizing that choosing a path that harms others is a path that ultimately harms you, too, because you and others are actually parts of the whole and thus, all one.

Knowing yourself energetically and knowing how you fit into the whole is powerful and empowering. When we dive in for a guided meditation, yes, I am guiding you, but you are the one exploring and experiencing yourself in different ways and in different realms. You are the one gleaning new perspectives and insights. By knowing yourself and how you fit into the whole, you are able to see where and how things need to change and you are able to use your specific gifts and skills to create change and help the whole.

A case in point about using your gifts to create change: in case you didn’t check Layla F. Saad out before, please do. Her work is amazing and not only life changing, but world changing! Her book will be out in February.

As we head toward the equinox and the energy of balance that comes with it, it’s a great time for a session on any topic, aspect of self, or area of your life that could benefit from some balancing. Schedule HERE or contact me HERE.

Current Energies, Transformation, and Bears, Oh My!

July dawn beam. Just like food is the original medicine, self-care is energetic nourishment.

July dawn beam. Just like food is the original medicine, self-care is energetic nourishment.

The eclipse season starts tomorrow with the new moon total solar eclipse (visible in South America) and Mercury goes retrograde on Sunday. It’s not just getting hot outside, the inner realms are getting hot, too! I’ve been experiencing lots of shifts on all layers and feel like June couldn’t possibly have been so full when it flew by so fast. There’s much about completion right now from deaths to jobs to personal patterns to karmic patterns. I’m seeing it in others, hearing it from others, and experiencing doozy level completions myself. If you’re interested in seeing what resonates for you in the current astrology, check here to see the astrologers I follow.

Last week I had a brief but clear dream full of nonhuman animals, with the closest and most prominent being a large bear sitting in front of me staring at me. I felt no fear, just a very matter of fact sense of being in the presence of a bear. The following morning Lilly and I met a friend for an early morning hike where we saw a huge bear walking down the trail towards us. We stopped, bear stopped. And eventually the bear turned around and walked back down the trail with one pause and glance over the shoulder at us before disappearing around the curve. We waited a bit before proceeding along the trail. The bear had left the trail at some point and we neither saw nor heard any more from a bear on our hike. For this to occur in the space of deep transformation I am currently experiencing feels potent. It is summer and I normally see lots of wildlife, but the past month has been rich with wildlife. Typically I don’t feel that the nonhuman creatures I see or hear are messengers, it’s more that they remind me of the webs within which we exist, and the similarities and differences among all of us as parts of the whole. Especially in a time of transformation, the support that I feel from so many reminders helping me remember and know I am part of the whole is priceless and affirming.

How are you currently navigating and/or experiencing life?

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Current Energies

June sunrise glow

June sunrise glow

It’s been an interesting roll from May into June. In mid May intense despair moved in, but even while experiencing it, I was aware of how different it was. I was depressed for a number of years and my experience of depression was being dragged into an abyss of despair and being stuck there. This recent despair was a presence in my energy body. I felt constricted with a sense of pressure from all directions, and I struggled to be me in every moment. I used all my skills working with this despair and it was just lodged there; there was no moving anything. And then after almost two weeks of this, I could suddenly feel it moving. It dissipated and flowed out of me over a 24 hour period. And that was when I realized just how much of my space it had been taking up. I was expanded into my whole self again. I could actually feel flashes of hope again.

I’m now in the midst of deep transformation with insights popping up right and left and all sorts of shedding going on. That despair was definitely a part of this transformation: setting me up for the different, the new, and reminding me of how much space I have that is mine to fill. This transformation feels specifically related to old, unhealthy patterns of perception of self, being human, love, and relating to other humans. Piece of cake, right?!

Today is a new moon and we’re only weeks away from the summer solstice. The days are stretching so long. There is so much light we can easily access. What seeds are you planting? What old blossoms are you releasing to the winds?

Here are two takes on the current energies that resonate with me.

https://thepowerpath.com/monthly-forecast/june-2019-monthly-forecast/

https://chaninicholas.com/horoscopes-for-the-new-moon-in-gemini-june-2019/

https://thepowerpath.com/moon-updates/moon-update-6-3-19-to-7-1-19/

May you know you are whole.

May you know you are part of the whole.

May you know you are light.

Timing, Rhythms, and Paths

Blue grosbeak

Blue grosbeak

When you pay attention to timing, rhythms, and paths, you find where you intersect with others. On our morning walks this is literal. While the time of our walk shifts with the light throughout the year, it’s a pretty gradual shifting most of the time. Who do we intersect with? Four deer cross our path at the same spot for much of the year. Grasshopper sparrows and meadowlarks are in the same areas of field and fence as we pass by from spring through fall. The adult foxes have slightly more variable rhythms but we often see one or know one has just crossed our path. This year the blue grosbeaks are nesting close to our path and this morning we got to see the male in a display with head feathers spiked, tail feathers dragging the ground, and wings moving slowly out and in as the female watched from the fence. He was just ahead of us and didn’t seem perturbed by us. We stopped to watch (just as we stop for the deer to cross) and he eventually flew up to where the nest seems to be. For me, awareness of where I intersect with others who are wild(er than I) really helps me know I am part of the whole. I can feel my part in the symphony of life. Who are you intersecting with and where?