Self-exploration

Navigating Time: One Perspective

January dawn colors.

January dawn colors.

So many thoughts swirl in me and my mind feels like a whirlwind when I think of writing something, but today I’ve managed to organize my thoughts a small bit. Time is something that I am fascinated with and by, and the past 9 months of living through this pandemic have really allowed me explore my relationship with time on a different level. What? A relationship with time? I know, it’s not a particularly common perspective. As my main experiential sense of life is spatial, it’s been helpful to realize that part of the pressure I feel as overwhelm is actually coming from my experience of time. Maps have always felt really comfortable for me and in recent years when I started mapping out my weeks and days, I felt better able to navigate time. My maps are a way for me to spatially orient myself, and my actions, in time. My maps aren’t new, but they’ve had a major impact on my ability to navigate the warped feeling time has during this pandemic: where at the same time things feel soo slow and lightning fast.

Much of life seems to be about figuring out myself on a deeper level and better using my strengths to meet my challenges as I expand more fully into my whole self. Knowing myself more deeply allows me to better explore my part of the whole and navigate that back and forth between experiencing myself as part of the whole and experiencing myself as the whole.

While there is obviously so much going on on so many fronts (scientific, medical, political, cultural, and more), this little snippet is what’s come out today. Stay safe, stay informed, stay well.

RESET, a guided meditation

Sunrise, April 3, 2020

Sunrise, April 3, 2020

Many of us are in close quarters with our families and housemates (humans and nonhumans alike) and spending more time together than usual. With the added stresses of our current reality, this makes for some different energy patterns between beings. My intention for this Monday’s meditation is to create and hold space for you as I guide you to clear your heart to heart connections and reconnect with yourself.

Here is what two of last Monday’s meditation participants had to say:
“Loved the meditation on Monday.”
"I really enjoyed the meditation last night!!!"

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RESET, a guided meditation
Monday, April 6th
By Phone
7-7:30 PM EDT
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I have spent more than a decade learning how to navigate my inner landscape, how to support myself in navigating a culture I rarely feel in sync with, and how to share my explorations of the heart to heart web of this world. I often receive information via clairsentience, and that is how I became an Intuitive Guide. I am a travel guide to the realms unseen, a realmwalker. While we’re all staying home, you may find a yearning or need to delve into an unseen world. If you would like a guide for that exploration, please contact me for a session. If you are experiencing financial hardship, please let me know and we will figure something out.

May you find the patterns that help you create the rhythm you need for your days. Breathe, be you, part of the whole.

~Namaste

Do you need a RESET?

You are an important part of the whole.

You are an important part of the whole.

Everyone is experiencing massive changes to their daily lives at the moment. Many people are feeling off-kilter. I am offering Reset, a guided meditation at 7pm on Monday, March 30th. I will guide you through your inner landscape as you explore, clear, and reconnect with yourself. You will discover and get to know your edges, heart space, elements and more. This will be a live call, and I will create and hold the space for you during this exploration. I want to make this available to all who could benefit, so I am offering this as pay-what-you-can, with a suggested payment of $5. Register here. And please share this far and wide as so many can benefit from this right now.
~Namaste

Are You a Human Being or a Human Doing?

For several reasons, I’m trying to stay in closer contact with friends via messaging and texting in this new reality. While the country is slow as a whole to grasp what is needed to flatten the curve, it is only a matter of time before we’re on a lockdown. Might as well start these patterns to stay in touch with people now. And in more normal times, I know that an important part of my mental and emotional health is quality human time. A normal week for me is full of planned walks and calls with friends to make sure I get that quality human time.

We live in an age where most people spend the vast majority of time staring at a screen. When they’re not working , they’re staring at their phone, tablet, or computer. There’s a massive disconnect. And it’s a disconnect from everything that’s actually real and important. It’s a disconnect from self. It’s a disconnect from other beings: humans and companion animals. It’s a disconnect from the natural world of which we are key parts. People have tried to become human doings instead of human beings. They are constantly doing and going. Being has become something foreign.

Now we are being suddenly tossed onto a new planet where we can’t go and do all the time. And the immediate thought is, “What do I do?” This is a time to look for the constants. This is a time to look for the connections. This is a time to explore yourself and your world in new ways.

What are the constants? First the natural world, of which we are a part, is the most powerful constant. It’s right outside your window. Even if you can’t go outside much or far, or are in an urban area, you have access. Look at the sky: clouds, birds, insects, colors, shapes, movement. Look at the trees and plants and landforms. Look at the animals: insects, birds, reptiles, amphibians, mammals. Look for the elements: earth, fire, water, wind, wood, stone, metal, ether, light, star, storm. Look to the humans who are constants and stay in contact with them by phone, video chat, messaging. Look to the companion animals who are always there supporting us. Second, look within yourself for the constants. This may not be as familiar a landscape for you. Take your time with this exploration. What do you know about yourself? Your likes and dislikes, your skills, gifts. What do you know about different aspects of yourself like your physical, emotional, mental, energy bodies? What do you know about your heart space? You will find constants within yourself as you explore.

Where are the connections? These may be with other humans, but they may be with companion animals, plants, characters in books. These may be the connections that you see and feel at more of a distance like the connections between trees in a wood, or the connections between grackles as their flock flies into the tree in your yard. Everything in our world is interconnected. Humans are not special in having and feeling connections. Look around you and explore.

Knowing self is one of the main reasons we are here. You can’t know other until you truly know self. Take this time in this different reality to do some inner spelunking. If you’re at home with your family, do it together. This is how massive change is created: person by person. You have power, use it wisely and with love.

~Namaste

Do You Have Control Freak Tendencies? I Do.

Mercury has already gone direct, but I’m still feeling the effects and growth of the retrograde period. It was a Mercury retrograde unlike others for me: intense and rich. The theme for me had to do control: what is in my control and what is not in my control. I kept experiencing clear moments where I had the awareness that I could choose not to keep sending my energy toward something that was out of my control. I had a major growth moment on an early walk with Lilly one morning. I felt like all my energy was streaming away from me in all directions in tiny little ribbons toward all the many unknowns, and then suddenly there was a shield, a bubble, around me. All that energy that had been streaming away from me toward all the things out of my control bounced off the shield and right back into my center. All my energy I had been wasting on stuff I couldn’t control was suddenly redirected back into/on me. I have since used this experience to redirect my energy when I can feel that I’m losing energy on stuff which is out of my control. Bonuses I’ve already experienced: I have more energy (imagine that); I am more relaxed; the more I do this, the easier (still not easy peasy) it is.

When I think of what’s in my control and what’s not in my control, I easily get overwhelmed because it always feels like there’s so much more out of my control than in my control. (Clearly, this is a piece of my anxiety picture.) With the coronavirus a pandemic now, it feels like the not in my control aspects of life are looming over me. But, using this experience, I now have a new tool to help me bring all my energy back to what is in my control: ME. So along with my daily walking and gratitude practices, and breathing exercises, and a plethora of other tools that I don’t necessarily need on a daily basis, I’ve been focusing on this redirection of my energy, and I’m not only finding glimmers of hope, I’m better able to navigate life.

~Namaste

Have You Mapped Yourself? Let’s Do It!

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Because for me life is an exploration, I am always looking into different aspects of self and other. Lately, the patterns and beliefs I’m uncovering in my deep dives are fascinating. Sometimes what I find is completely new, sometimes it’s a different level of something I already know, but everything is an insight that I need right now (due to the current bigger energies, I believe). Because life is change, we’re always in transition. I find that to be a helpful reminder fairly regularly.

This summer I read this article about walking and felt a deep resonance with what Shane O’Mara, a neuroscientist, is studying and has found about the links between walking and cognitive function and depression. I know that walking is a key component of mental health for me. I know that walking is when thoughts rearrange themselves, when insights occur, when my brain is able to relax. O’Mara calls walking a superpower and I know that walking is a key component to my knowledge of and continued explorations of other realms. My superpower is actually an important piece of my gift as a realm walker. I know, how mystical and fantastical that sounds! In reality it’s such a part of me that it took years to separate it out as something that not everyone experiences.

O’Mara also talks about theta brainwaves and walking and spatial learning. (Yes, this guy hits on everything, including rhythm, that I have been writing and talking about for years!) Being spatial (not just as a learner, but as a way of being) for me means that I use time, place, current emotional, mental, and physical states (and more) all as markers for knowing where I am in relation to other, whether that’s beings, emotional, mental, physical state, or beyond. Basically I am always mapping my existence. I talk about navigating a lot and that’s because I am always mapping and moving within the map inside of me. This cool article reminded me that maps are narratives. And just like life is change, maps are always changing, too.

The guided meditation work I do helps people discover who and what and how they are in relation to others (ideas, aspects, beings, etc.). What we’re doing together is mapping you in your current world. Regular work together keeps your mapping skills honed and helps you navigate daily life and keep up with life (changes). If you are in the midst of a larger transition a session can be a huge support in shoring up your boundaries, and bringing clarity to your perspectives, and possibilities. We’re heading into the time where each 24 hour window has more dark and less light. Now is the perfect time to get some inner mapping done to prepare for the next season. You can schedule your session HERE or HERE.

~Namaste

Current Energies, Transformation, and Bears, Oh My!

July dawn beam. Just like food is the original medicine, self-care is energetic nourishment.

July dawn beam. Just like food is the original medicine, self-care is energetic nourishment.

The eclipse season starts tomorrow with the new moon total solar eclipse (visible in South America) and Mercury goes retrograde on Sunday. It’s not just getting hot outside, the inner realms are getting hot, too! I’ve been experiencing lots of shifts on all layers and feel like June couldn’t possibly have been so full when it flew by so fast. There’s much about completion right now from deaths to jobs to personal patterns to karmic patterns. I’m seeing it in others, hearing it from others, and experiencing doozy level completions myself. If you’re interested in seeing what resonates for you in the current astrology, check here to see the astrologers I follow.

Last week I had a brief but clear dream full of nonhuman animals, with the closest and most prominent being a large bear sitting in front of me staring at me. I felt no fear, just a very matter of fact sense of being in the presence of a bear. The following morning Lilly and I met a friend for an early morning hike where we saw a huge bear walking down the trail towards us. We stopped, bear stopped. And eventually the bear turned around and walked back down the trail with one pause and glance over the shoulder at us before disappearing around the curve. We waited a bit before proceeding along the trail. The bear had left the trail at some point and we neither saw nor heard any more from a bear on our hike. For this to occur in the space of deep transformation I am currently experiencing feels potent. It is summer and I normally see lots of wildlife, but the past month has been rich with wildlife. Typically I don’t feel that the nonhuman creatures I see or hear are messengers, it’s more that they remind me of the webs within which we exist, and the similarities and differences among all of us as parts of the whole. Especially in a time of transformation, the support that I feel from so many reminders helping me remember and know I am part of the whole is priceless and affirming.

How are you currently navigating and/or experiencing life?

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